blessed is the earth's grounding

i hurry up the gumption as it comes into me, because i know it so easily leaks back out...my lower back and sacrum are sore, they pulse while i lay flat on my back with my head on a book, thankful that i have a laptop to type on. my creativity has dwindled with this spinal sensitivity and dis ease.

my head is in a cloudy wave at the moment, my mind preoccupied by awareness of unwellness in the body, i converse in spurts and lose my concentration like some nimble minded woman. i know that clarity is coming, and that this patience i must provide to myself is a form of nurturing. i notice how quickly time is zipping by. pshew! a week blasts by, sswishh! a new moon opens up in the night sky. i am learning that time is really a non-existent...not paying attention or having focus in these foggy states of mind is all contribution to the speed of time. i absolutely can't comprehend how i existed at an 8-9 hour per day job 5 days a week, and still got things done in my spare time (taught yoga, sang 3 nights a week, had friends).

this leads me to believe that the simple rules and regiments of a day could be very helpful to me. i know all the answers lie within my muddled out of focus body...i know that when i putz around in the morning with no schedule time flies and all of sudden it's noon and i haven't showered or eaten...i know what doesn't work. i also know that some mornings, that's necessary to veg. i'm not talking about stressing me out with rules, but rather, introducing ways to create space for creation thru some sort of daily habitual practice. in essence, grounding.

this is the earth element...this is the center of the 5 elements, and it feeds all elements. with out earth, there can be no nourishment, and therefore we cannot exist. so waking, eating, meditating, following the day in a natural way can assist the body to be more at ease...which is what i need in my life. i am too floating...

my wise friend dalida said that it takes 21 days to form a habit, so it's starting with one thing and introducing it into the daily regime. it could be as simple as brushing my teeth with my other hand, or eating breakfast first thing when i wake, meditating or something else i can handle...

to be continued...