tarot cards, listening to my own knowing

i did a few readings last night with tarot cards. what it told me is what i already know.
sort of.

here i am again in my life, on my own, with so much joy and other gifts of goodness around me...and i am pursuing situations in my life that do not have any clear focus. this is because i do not have clear desires and goals. everything is on messy settings, where i fly by the seat of my pants trying to get whatever i need done...i think this is just the way i have functioned for so long over these past few years that i have not really sunk my heart into my art.

i have had an amazing rush of realization about the past 6-8 months of my life. there is gratitude for all of this learning and love. i haven't done anything particularly miraculous, but certainly there is an increase in magic in my life...also absolute awareness of what i don't want, what neediness actually is, and how to avoid this...

yet this past week or so, my stress has increased, so much so that i feel it in my glands, which is something i have not felt in years. warning signs in my body. i know what to do.

take care of self....

i have a really close friend of mine, she's an angel; psychically gifted, inspiring, loving, so wonderful, everyone loves her, including me. yet she doesn't affort herself love, and runs herself into the ground. sounds familiar...the idea of giving and giving is a charitable notion, and one that will win points for who is most likable. the lesson in this is about self giving, and having the consciousness to receive, to be grateful, to sit in this energy...

i got THE STAR card in my tarot, which is just an overall goodness card. it was reversed, and can be read that i am not appreciating all this goodness around me. sounds familiar.

so what do i need to do in my life to bring balance...

i know, i know. it's all right here, inside of me...no need for trips to relaxing places...this can be tapped into anytime i'm ready. am i ready for the next step? : )

peace. i choose peace